Hi Everyone
Its time for an update. I will be away from the blog for another week. I WILL BE BACK .Only I have in the past few weeks been hit by all that has happened over the past few months.
As you know I lost my amazing Dad too young, then my Mum has fought Cancer which is going well i might add,but that is hard and then I lost my job and had to find a way to make a income and still have time to play on the blog and create art.
I thought I was ok, getting through things but recently I have become very down, low and not in the best of places and so I went back to counselling and have been given so much amazing help and am beginning to feel more "Andy" than I have in a long time.
As many of you might see I have been posting on Patreon and doing my best to keep going on there. If I could have I would have stepped back from everything, but Patreon now pays bills and is not only for fun which is why it has been Ai created work, a lot of which I had stored up on file and had preloaded so I did not need to worry about it, But what I want is to be able to create new Andy and Aunt Jane art, I love it and it gives me pleasure to do it, but recently I have not been able to step into Andys world without taking my troubles with me and so the art i have made is not the real fun stuff, too dark I think sums it up and so I have waited until my own light returned and it is, it is returning and soon I will be back and Andy and Jane will play in the sun again.
So to all of you who have sent me emails and messages, I love you and I will reply,but please be patient.......even now writing this I am doing a hand wringing thing which is a tell of my mental health.
So I had better get away for now before I have tears.
Please be safe, be loved and love in return and when I return we will all have some fun for a long time to come.
With love
Andy
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Yay! A light at the end of the tunnel. Myself, and many others, wish you only the best. Do what you can, do what you must. Take care of yourself, even if only an inch at a time.
ReplyDeleteI feel deeply for you, yes here's to the healing powers and take time to absorb it to bring back your light.
ReplyDeleteI have felt similar to what you say you’re feeling, and I experienced how difficult it can be to come back into the light. Take all the time you need, we’ll greet you with open arms when you come back. In the meantime, just take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteIt's very sad to read about all your circustances. I am following your blog for many years now and it's always very nice what I have found here. I can only hope that your life is getting better as soon as possible!
ReplyDeleteFor you little darling! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQetemT1sWc - Hugs and kisses
ReplyDeleteThere's a lot of love out here for you and your work. We appreciate all that you do. Our best wishes to you and your mum.
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Hi Andy, take as much time as you need—your health is the most important thing.
ReplyDeleteAndy, I can empathise with how you feel. Been there myself, but I can state that it is possible to come out the other side, and knowing that others love and care for you certainly helps. Take your time, don't rush or put yourself under any time pressure. Andy and Aunt Jane will enjoy a holiday away from the public gaze until they, and you, are ready to return. Take care of yourself because your health is the most important thing. Love and hugs xxx
ReplyDeleteTu es très courageux je suis de tout coeur avec toi reste fort prend ton temps prend soin de toi bisous sincères
ReplyDeleteTake all the time you need Amanda, I'm revisiting earlier pages while you look after yourself. It's always the combinations that get you and you've been smart enough to get help early which always makes things better.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you know that there will be a few bad days ahead but they get further apart and milder over time, I know as I've been there as well but it does get much better.
Hi,
ReplyDeleteI wanted to say im sorry for you loss.
And im going through something similar.
I lost my Dad 6 years ago, and than my Mom became enraged and angry all the time, and she cant be supportive or provide motherly love, and my Mom went through her Medical difficulties, and my sister left the country with her family, so im now on my own.
In addition to all of that, this all made me feel sad/depressed??? about Drawing and Art.
Its like whats the point, he wont be here to see it, and my Mom doesnt care.
I wanted to reach out and say as an Artist, and as a Human Being, what your going through is horrible, and also in an awfull way, a normal reaction to this personal tragedy.
Its like someone pulled out the Rug from under you, and theres a hole under the floor where your reality used to be, where your Dad was.
You and, I certainly, probably never realized he was one of the pillars holding you up, he played a certain role in your family that is now gone, as time passes, it will become more clear what that is.
It makes sense you are overwhelmed,
My Advice that you can take or ignore is, try drawing out your hurt, your pain your anger, even if you show no one and dont post it here.
Visual Art communicates in a different way, than words, talking and even music do, i dont know how, i just notice the difference.
It wont make everything ok, because nothing will, it will just help ease the pain.
Take the time to grieve, and talk to family and friends.
Theres a video i saw about Grieving, How we dont move on from Grief,
We move on with Grief, which i know is true for me, i still will and probably always will miss my Dad.
This is the Video,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khkJkR-ipfw
One thing i keep in mind is, Grief, is not a linear process, you dont go through it, and it ends.
Like the 5 stages of Grief, Denial,, Bargaining, Anger, Depression, and Acceptance, they don't go in a linear order, they go all over the place, and were a mess emotionally, and she said something there ive felt many times, Grief is like a Tidal Wave of Emoetion ,if you bury it and deny it, it comes back to bury you harder, and there are times, even in the wrong or random circumstances, where Grief stands there like a Tidal Wave and says, you will never see your Father you loved so much, and in that moment i have to make a choice, do i accept it and let it wash over me like a tidal wave and i break down and cry, or do i deny it, only for it to come back stronger, my advice is to accept it and let it wash over you.
Because right now you are going through living hell, losing the person you love the most.
Im really so sorry for your loss,
If you want or need to talk, im here.